psycho fawn.

Sun, 29 Jan 2006 04:07:26 GMT

Mystic River. What a fucking good movie. Thought I'd share.

Oh yeah, this is how good my mom's lemon meringue looks:

What movie have you seen lately that's worth reccomending?

Mon, 23 Jan 2006 06:28:30 GMT

... I wish I could say it was huge amounts of work that have kept me up till this hour. That I am a responsible girl who will surely excell in her exams and first semester classes. But I've come to the realization that although my mind&body have known the best of stress, there are certain things that just don't have that effect on me. Exams, for example. Call me lucky or the very opposite --I'll try my very best to minimize all possible procrastination activities, but that's about a challenge as it is for me to recognize you without my glasses. At least I had a good long midnight conversation with my elderly brother; he's so wise&unwise & I aspire to such a contradiction. Staying up 'till hours digesting the darkest of chocolate & trying to figure out what I'm to do with myself is good enough for the moment.

i'm a runner on a mission & the taste of peanut butter won't go away.

Thu, 19 Jan 2006 03:11:07 GMT

got home, & then the cooking rampage began! i cooked sundied tomato/basil rice with asparugus for dindin. then i realized we have about 20 ripened bananas so i decided to make the well-loved banana bread. buttt i kind of felt like making something new for the Gottfried household. i busted out the healthy heart cookbook (which is sure to please both heart&tongue), & after little deliberation decided on apple cake. it was fluffy&sweet&comforting & me and my father devoured it like starving people. so i really took a liking to this baking thing. today i made peanut butter cookies & if you like your cookies golden/crispy/slightly-burnedbutnot, then i'll bring some tommorow & maybe you'll like. i think this bella baker thing's gonna have to stay for a while if i intend on fufilling the many promises i made of cookie orders.

ok folks, for my next item, something...?
a) cheesecakish lemonish
b) bananaee
c) apple&dates
d) choco chip

Sun, 08 Jan 2006 21:05:36 GMT

Birthday Morning!

Woke up, came down the kitchen to find a bouquet of the most exquisite flowers on the table. I was treated to not one, but TWO slices of my favourite homemade lemon meringue pie for breakfast (coutesy of my mum) & a red robin perched by the window& made for a very nice addition.

**Birthday Night (ie now) will be spent dining on sushi with the famjam. I'm so pumped, honestly you have no idea, I haven't had it in basically years.

Cheers to being 17 & filling up on yummy foods!

ps. if you see me tomorrow, you better pretend like i look older. just don't tell me you're pretending... say it's the haircut, or something.

pps. yes, spain photos will be posted eventually.

In The Name Of Sir. W

Thu, 15 Dec 2005 00:18:59 GMT

i'm all topsy-turvey on the inside.

i wish i had the effects of bright lights in a pitch -dark room. on demand, feel that same rush of blood (not be frightened) & permit the softness of things to affect me like i want it to. be able to take obscure remarks as lovely thoughts; see subtle smiles as genuine love. take note of the tension in your muscles --it has the ability to let out uncomfortable secrets. listen to you body; it craves a good sprawl, a good fetal position, yes even a good spoon now&then. i didn't believe you when you said that age took a leap within seconds, but boy, did i look foolish once i saw all you up there. and boy i miss Shakespeare, how about you?

Tue, 08 Nov 2005 04:34:34 GMT

i'll fight like a fighter, look, it's me down there.

i''ll spit in your face, & the only thing you'll say is how girly it was. but i don't mind because, now for the good stuff, & jesus, it really is good! (gosh damnit did i really use his name in vain?) i run the 100m sprint, which i've never done before. i'd always wanted to & finally i found the oxygen supply. that pesky little thing, it came without warning! i'm 17 soon, i've decided it's time i knew how to kung-fu like a master.

downtown production.

Sun, 06 Nov 2005 04:17:24 GMT

brought to you by:

&&&scene.

Wed, 02 Nov 2005 02:41:16 GMT

make up my mind, can't make up my mind. striving for it all or only for that, or whichever which way you'd prefer to put it. opinion opinion & yet another. so many to choose from, tell me what i want to hear but don't tell me it was the truth all along, boy would that ever stink! not trying hard enough, trying too too hard enough. the secretive life i live; an actor's fool (which is really quite ironic). dance dance dance, come round&round all the girls&boys. what a waste of bloody time. give me what i need -a good slap in the face: the realisitic approach. there is work to be done.

Sun, 23 Oct 2005 14:25:19 GMT

You Are Apple Cider

Smooth and comforting. But downright nasty when cold.

What Part of Fall Are You?

Sun, 31 Jul 2005 14:49:23 GMT

Last night i went to see the movie "Me & You & Everyone We Know".
After the movie we went to the bathroom, & my mom asks some random woman,
"So how'd you like it?"
to which the woman replies:
"Dat was sooo stuuupit. Nothing made sense!"

Mon, 25 Jul 2005 22:03:54 GMT

!st paycheck = $457.17... not too shabby.
being deducted from $502.53 because of taxes... a tad bit shabby.

i must admit i enjoy being a working gal.

Sat, 16 Jul 2005 22:36:00 GMT

lately has been spent in jeans & my i heart ny t-shirt. random jewlery finds have kept me excited, & of course there are the luxurious desserts. a new found spontaneity has kept me busy, although i'm always looking for new people to flaunt it with, honestly. i recently have learnt that i live in unionville, that i do infact have the ability to socialize in thornhill (i'd be more than happy to host all who are interested)& that apparently downtown is where i'll end up shortly. sometimes i worry that friends have gone missing, but then i assume that i am just being irrational and/or normal. you know what they say: "assuming makes an ass out of you & me". well then mazel tov! we're both asses; how relieving. thankfully i have found new & old ways to dress up my room to keep things fresh (a partial "thank-you" goes out to ikea locations everywhere, even thise in switzerland) & fascinations and successful attractions to things such as vibrant colours. cheers to awaiting my first paycheck & completing long-awaited shopping desires. cheers to surviving work in heat alert temperatures without air-conditioning, & being ready to strike at any moment, & to heck with the children!
i have been inspired to dream of life in venice, baguettes, & haute couture, & occasionally i wake up & realize i still don't have my G1.

Not In Bed.

Wed, 18 May 2005 04:00:15 GMT

My goal of going to sleep earlier has not been very successful.
& I'm not ready for my math quest tomorrow.
I just had a very LARGE portion of pasta for some odd reason.
Random cravings are seem to be common these days.
I hate going to bed on a full stomach...
& I just posted because... procrastiantion? I dunno really... I'm fucking exhausted so I should be in bed, I really don't know why the fuck I'm still here. [I blame it on the full tummy] but procrastination seems like the easy answer to most things.

Goodnight girls and boys.

Wed, 20 Apr 2005 01:19:32 GMT

ESTROGEN CHECK:
"You know you waaaaant it!"

TESTOSTERONE CHECK:
"Ohhhh yeeeeaaaah!"

I'm STILL living and breathing ALIVE 05.

Let's Re-invent Tofu.

Thu, 17 Mar 2005 23:57:17 GMT

Recently made a visit to the local health food store with my mum, which was just as pleasing as I'd expected.
I'm all stocked up with the goods, and I'm feeling very creative in the kitchen!
Now all I need is to start with the powershakes and dining at my place could really be like "Fresh on Tal Street" or something snazzy like that. Complete with delicious veggie hummus dips, thai mango and peanut sauces, and these orgasmic olive cracker things I really don't know what else to call.

Bowl of papaya with lime anyone?

Wellcome To The Show!

Tue, 08 Mar 2005 23:22:00 GMT

A prescribed tendancy to get increasingly more and more stressed (she reluctantly agrees to call it) from the workload she unknowingly sets for herself. Appropriately complains to those with seemingly willingly open ears. Admits to feeling a slight amount of guilt for giving in with the uncover of a crinkly layer of her brown paper wrapping. It is vintage, thus savoured? Neglects her need to prepare for battle like the ferocious beast she should be enviously imitating, she chooses to call upon stupidity and procrastinte through the hours. She carefully devours homemade cookies and covers the grounds with her golden sugary cookie crumbs.

Back in the game baby.

Wed, 09 Feb 2005 22:33:46 GMT

Lend me some oxygen, I'm out of breath. I want to be trusted, I really do. Change is twisting away, into unreachable places. Saltwater is familiar at this very moment although I'd much rather it not be. A pain so unique, as it seeps into my veins. Tomorrow seems a million light years away. I'm not trapped, but I don't have the fuel to run necessary lengths. Please do not remove me of my chances.
I think I finally figured out my fears.

I'm almost there.

Dull Pink Tights.

Tue, 08 Feb 2005 04:02:10 GMT

Back into the room having to watch girls stare at themselves in these gigantic mirrors, refusing minature birthday cupcakes in hopes of getting skinnier. Striving to resist the urge to be silly while my muscles screech wishing I'd make them stop, even though this isn't too too painful anyway... much more time-cosuming then anything else. Back to a teacher who refers to the basics that we apparently have been "practising since age seven", when this is clearly not the case for me. Little girls, with eager eyes, struggling to break their bones in order to impress. Surrounded by striving feathers.

...C'mon, just eat the fucking cupcake already. Honestly... fuck.

Tue, 08 Feb 2005 02:52:37 GMT

Attention: Msn is being a whore and yes, it is screwing everyone up.
However, it started working for me as of now, so go on... try again!

That is all.

Thu, 03 Feb 2005 20:54:07 GMT

I entered a game without any real idea of how the game was to be played. Unaware of the rules, I was a first-time player playing among experts. Not the easiest set-up. Nevertheless, I had faith in myself that experience playing would, one day, get me to their level of expertise. I thought others might have faith in my potential and although I didn't even give up, I was cut off the team.

Sat, 29 Jan 2005 22:23:18 GMT

Laugh so hard
that you go into silent laugh mode
and you come dangerously close to falling out of your chair,
but don't.

There is also a drop of pee involved here somewhere.

Kindle Our Footsteps.

Wed, 26 Jan 2005 00:15:42 GMT

The feelings are all aboard and float aimlessly but remain untouchable to necessay fingers. Replace my head with a daisy. You won't understand and you'll feel dumb, and we'll both go off and dance carelessly together.
I think I'd like that.
Let's go roll in the mud. Get our clothes dirty and wear them to school unclean.

Please accept this unecessary invitation.

Beep.

Sun, 02 Jan 2005 23:24:25 GMT

So today I woke up to the most HORRIBLE sound i know.
My alarm clock. at 7am. Fuck.
I have no idea how this is gonna work...
It took my 1/2 an hour to eventually suck it up, and gather the strength to get out of my oh-so-comfy bed.
Oh well... at least rehersal didn't go till 9pm like i thought it would be. 5 o clock i can deal with. 5 o clock leaves some time to keep sane for tomorrow.

I just found out my first show is on wenesday.
Yeah... hello? Completely unaware here.

... At least I'm not missing first day back in clown.
Amen for that.

Wed, 10 Nov 2004 22:46:03 GMT

Wow, it's been so long since I've listened to Pink Floyd.
I'd almost forgotten how much i enjoy their music...

and the memories they bring :)

Mon, 08 Nov 2004 02:19:52 GMT

well i SHOULD be almost finished my novel study... but i'm not. nowhere near, in fact. but, it's not my fault because you know that awful virus that has been spreading lately through the grades? yeah well i got that. it started friday -but that would NOT stop me from catching up wit erin, nor would it stop me from going downtown bloor st. or anywhere downtown for that matter.

we are charlie's angels, studying fashion design?

i love it.

*erin's glasses may have helped, but me and jess definitely had SOMETHING to do with it ;)

ps. tal hates yogurt. well actually, she hatED yogurt until that is last night.
no fat chocolate yogurt will do that to you.